Covid has really caused a lot of decline in my mental health. I felt like I was finally getting better. Getting stronger mentally. And recently I’ve been an anxious mess. I’ve started to feel more and more like a child again. All I want is affection and comfort and I can’t always get that. I literally feel like I’m a kid.. it’s a very hopeless, lonely feeling. It makes me feel very dependent on people and I know I cannot be this way forever… or I’ll never succeed in life.
Covid has been tough for everyone… it has caused life to be put on pause… it has caused me to stay home, sit around, do nothing, and be stuck with my thoughts..
I’m naturally a person who gets seasonal depression in the winter time, and now adding covid precautions on top of it, I feel more and more anxious and just down.
I know a lot of people don’t understand what I deal with, and that’s understandable. Sometimes I cannot even explain why I am upset. Some days I just start crying and do not have a reason… and I just feel like a hassle to everyone around me.. sometimes I just want to have a hug, and sometimes I just need to go to bed.. otherwise I’m stuck in my endless cycle of overthinking and I get nowhere. Nowhere but down.
I hope the best for everyone during these rough times. I hope everyone blossoms and gains the tools to succeed mentally. I need to switch up my coping skills and try new things. Because the things I’m using now aren’t working for me anymore. When I figure out what works for me, I will post an update. But for now, I’m focusing on just living in the now and surviving.
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